I have had so many thoughts mulling around I just had to put some of them to paper or in this case the computer.
I am not sure if it is my age or the age we live in that life just seems to keep going no matter what. I remember as a teen I thought the world would come to a stand still every time I had a crisis. Every time we moved to a new place seemed like time stood still. Every thought revolved around " I can't wait until...," Now I find myself saying " I wish I could have..." or "I just blinked and it was over" I was reminded tonight how life keeps going even when we can't breathe.
A dear friend of ours from church slipped into eternity early Sunday morning. We had all been praying for God's perfect will for our brother Terry. Of course our desire was that he would be healed. God in all of His sovereignty brought Terry directly into the presence of Jesus on Sunday morning. We arrived at church to hear the bittersweet news that our brother had gone home. I just stood there and thought " "wait I am not ready for this". I knew his sweet wife wasn't ready for that or his sisters or his children. I wanted time to reverse so I could have prayed more or said more..., The list goes on. Time moved forward from that moment on. Life didn't stop for his family to catch their breath. We went to the viewing tonight and we brought my father-in-law with us and he brought along his lady friend (Boy has life moved on). The church was packed and I just watched as people went through the line and smiled and hugged and wept along with Terry's family. A little over a year ago we were at my mother-in-law's viewing I was in that line. It was such a hard day and the following day was even harder as we put her body to rest. My friend Cindy hugged me and I said "this is so hard". Time seemed to stand still that night. Tonight as I hugged my dear friend Brenda who was Terry's middle sister ( I am a middle sister too) she said "this is so hard". She also said tomorrow was going to be hard and I said"yes it will be really hard". "That is why we are praying so diligently " It was at that moment I thought "life kept going". We have come full circle from last summer. Death does not stop life from moving on and sometimes it just seems like it should. I want Ellen and Brenda and the rest of the family to catch their breath and wait a minute to soak in all that has happened. When my husband was diagnosed with cancer I wanted to sit down and not get up. I wanted time to catch my breath. That didn't happen. Surgery and now 5 weeks post surgery we are beginning to catch our breath. Life all around us keeps moving. Our brother Terry lived his life as if tomorrow might not come. His life was a testimony to Christ until the end. He glorified God all through his illness. I know the verse in 2 Corinthians 12:8 says ..."My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness". Terry lived that out loud even when he felt horrible. I am praying for the family that they know His Grace is all they need. His power will hold them up tomorrow and the next day and the next. Life will keep going but His promises will sustain them. We are praying dear sisters. Love you so much!